Those days

I'm afraid that I'm having one of those days. You know the ones, where your head feels foggy and your thoughts seem all crossed, you can't figure out which project to start first and everything just seems muddled. Perhaps it is because Carys woke up at 4:30AM? Or maybe it was those scary dreams that I had last night? Could it be because we are getting ready to travel tomorrow?

I'd say all of the above.

Days like this make me feel like I'm trapped inside a bubble, bouncing against the walls, feeling frustrated that I can't do more or be more.

It is on days like this that I need to be really gentle with myself.

The way that I feel is reminding me of the butterflies in this new drawing, flitting around. Then there is that one dripping with color, she knows what's up! She knows that even on those days there is power. She can still choose to be in the moment. She can still choose to live boldly. Yes, even on those days.

5 comments:

Violet Bella said...

i know those days all too well. yes, you are right, all of the above are why. and you have the right perspective as well, 'to be gentle with yourself'. that is exactly what we all need to remember. we can so easily beat ourselves up when we feel 'not enough'. and i love your personification of the butterfly in your drawing, it just gave it so much life and character :)

Violet Bella said...

thank you so very much.

i got so frustrated yesterday while trying to put it together. ive been wanting to create one for some time too. i searched all over the web for calendar dates i could use and ended up buying a photoshop brush for $8. it worked well in the end. happy to be done! i love it also.

peace,
laura

Enrouge {karan karla} said...

Faith, I popped in to your blog just for a wee second and I just had to drop everything and write to say YES! I know what you are talking about. Do you know how much that helps me to hear you talk about it?? It's like medicine. Sometimes it can be really bad, especially if you get a physical component going of a light headache, etc., which often happens to me when I'm in that kind of bubble. So I'm wishing you clarity today! Sometimes a nap really helps me if I missed that much sleep. It's so cool that you can look to your little butterfly and gain strength and perspective to steamroll ahead.

I will be remembering your thoughts on this post in particular. Next time I have one of "those" days I believe I will remember to consider focusing on something in my work or another artist's work. It might just give me a little kernel of hope and enough fortitude to get me through the day better than I thought I could.

Enrouge {karan karla} said...

p.s. OMGoodness, Faith, your new paintings/prints are amazing. You are blossoming before our eyes in full color--full speed ahead. Gorgeous!!

Lori said...

Oh I so understand what you are talking about- my mind is going crazy right now wanting to comment on your new banner, new paintings, new picture of you and your post today- I LOVE this blog! I am thrilled to see what you are working on and I have missed checking in with you this past week. I am off to your other posts and your blog. I am wondering where you are headed?

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